July 8, 2004

  • I miss Ryan so much!  I keep looking at our wedding pictures, and reliving the moments we spent together on his leave only to depress myself even more.  Sometimes I feel like crying, but couldn't for some reason.  It seems like this second time saying goodbye is even harder than the first time. 

    I'm in my 15 weeks now, which means I'm in the 2nd trimester!  I'm really looking forward to feeling the baby's first kick, and finding out the baby's sex.  I really don't care if we're having a boy or a girl at this point.  As long as he/she is healthy and happy.  Ryan and I decided on the name Arianna if it's a girl, and Sean if it's a boy.  We haven't really picked out the middle names yet because Ryan wants my parents to give our baby a Vietnamese name, and that will be his/her middle name.  I make it a point to keep Ryan updated on my OB visits, and the changes my body and the baby are going through while he's in Bosnia.  I also found a pretty helpful website that has a summary of each week's progress, so he knows what to expect (moodiness from mommy, etc.).  We have no doubts that it will be a very difficult journey, having to juggle school, work, and the baby among other things but we have faith in us, and we believe our love will carry us through.  I love Ryan from the depth of my heart and I know he feels the same way about me. 

    A proud wife of an Infantryman.