HAPPY FATHER’S DAY!!!

I may have found a sitter for Ariana!  My cousin’s been taking care of her for the past two days so Ari could get used to her.  Of course she cried, but I think she’ll get better after a week or two.  I’m keeping my fingers crossed.  I hate seeing her crying and being so miserable.  On the other hand, I think it’s best to give her some time away from Mommy so it won’t be so hard on her once she starts school.  I hope I’m doing the right thing.  I know I am.  She’s very well-taken care of by my cousin, it’s just so hard seeing your baby unhappy.

eYe CaNDy!

My sweet baby and my nephew.  She loves posing for the camera  .

I   my baby girl!

I  her curls!

It is unfortunate that some people have to fall flat on their face before they realize what they were doing were hurting the people they love. 

My first week back to work was wonderful.  Needless to say, I missed Ariana like crazy but I know she’s in good care, and it will do her some good being away from Mommy from time to time.  My MIL has her on Thursday mornings until Ryan wakes up, then he has her the rest of the day until I come home.  Ryan also has her all day on Fridays.  Then my parents have her on the weekends.  I hope the babysitting arrangements will not change once Ryan starts with CPD.  I really want to work but if his schedule changes, I don’t know what I’d do. 

I was up half the night last night…just thinking.  Seems like I’m doing a lot of that as of late.  I don’t think I’m depressed.  I’m just stressed out about money and I think about it too much when I’m awake, so I sleep a lot to break away from the problem.  Ryan doesn’t seem to understand.  He takes everything so personal.  He said I piss him off when I stress over money, and that it makes him feel “inadequate”. 

Ariana had made another milestone…She took her first steps on Friday!!  I was feeding Ari her lunch when she stood up and took 6 steps, fell down, then she got up and walked 7 steps before she fell head first onto the carpet.  I’m so proud of her. 

Ariana’s Photo Album